We Are Society.

I used to look at a woman and really take in and appreciate her body, whether it was the subtle curve of her hips, or the way her legs moved swiftly with each step.  I appreciated this simply because it was how God made her, and even as a woman myself, I recognize the sheer and gentle beauty of women.  But somehow, in the mess of all things that is life, my opinion became all sorts of twisted and shifted.  I don’t even know when this event partook but suddenly I’m seeing women differently.  I see them all over social media with their six packs and highly unrealistic large asses and I cannot help but look for those very assets in everyday women.  Somehow I have conformed to the world and that is exactly what I have been trying to avoid in my whole nineteen years of living.

So in this very moment I would like to renew my mind, and I’d like to share with you guys my epiphany of a beautiful body–which just so happens to be any body.  And no, I am not encouraging obesity, but instead encouraging to love your body thoroughly and sincerely.  That means loving it enough to treat it right.  Keep it healthy, show it mercy.  If you enjoy working out, by all means, you get that six-pack and toned-to-shit ass. But if working out just isn’t your fetish and quickens your breathing just thinking about it?…. You should actually probably lay off the donuts and remember to treat your body right.  But if you want to have a donut every once in a while, who cares.  We aren’t slaves to what other people are admitting their expectations to be.  Just leave the modern world behind and listen to me when I say that all bodies are beautiful whether or not they are what people are all of a sudden thinking they should be.  We are society.  We can either change it, or conform to it.  It’s up to us.

The Quality of a Lie.

So many times in my life, people have fed me lies,

so many lies, I lost count.

Lies about them, lies about me, lies about them with me, lies about them with

someone else.

The lies just kept on coming– after time, I realized that I’m done believing what people say to me.

I am to the point where the compliments, the sweet words, the so-called “truth,” just comes in one ear and stumbles out the other

 …… the words stop, for a sweet second, and I appreciate them

 

then reality hits, and I remember,

                    the quality of a lie.

 

The way it makes me feel good, makes me feel worth something, makes me feel like I actually mean to this person,

what

they

say

I

do.

 

Then the lie comes alive, and I realize what it really was to start out with– an untrue, heart-wrenching,

 false commitment to my thoughts.

I got so tired of hearing these lies,

       and I don’t know any other way–

                  it’s unfortunate really,

because I honestly want to believe the words you say