the white bird sings
see (sweet) tempting
savor
your tongue
taste my lips
black birds
crow(n)
the
pure
worship the white
faces with fingers
down throughts (throats)
slits
hidden follow me____
into this darkness
i’m in
deep
understanding
complicated by
black birds
screaming
A broken heart every night
As I leave you in bed alone
Cold and vacant my spot by you
The warmth of my body now known
“I will do anything” you beg
To keep me lying next to you
But it has come my time to go
Yet this is something that you knew
Kiss you on the forehead gently
Absorbing what my eyes can see
Take in your sweet serenity
Say your sleeping goodbye to me
Dream of the day that I come back
When blackbirds start their early sing
But as for tomorrow, my love
I shall be gone in the morning
Touch my cheeks
Like you do
Oh gently
So he speaks
Now grab more
Jerk my eyes
To meet yours
Look me dead
No hold back
Words you’ve said
Don’t forget
The fire
My eyes lit
Flames for you
How could it ever be
My overbite smile
My rough and scarred knee
My makeup lined eyes
My anger degree
My muscular thighs
My young boyish hands
My indecisive mind
How my haunting thoughts see
How I’m not always kind
With these insecurities
How could it ever be
That you want to love me?
The mess that I am
Seeking help in you
An unstable woman
Who I give my mind to
I don’t mean to destroy
But what else can I do
When everything that I am
Will never be enough for you
I set fire to your skin,
The high, burning sensation.
With my most violent ways.
Everlasting destructive phase.
Your eyes reflected demons,
On the days that mine fought back.
A grenade rest in my hand,
Our city under attack.
The monster in me released,
Villan, vampire, satan, beast.
Yet beauty like a tightened bow,
Too cruel to know, you reap what you sow.
Although, what could I have done
While being what I am?
Unnatural in an age like this.
You, the ignorant man
Taught my mind a fictitious pain.
Villan, vampire, satan, beast.
Feral, sick woman by your claim.
With this deceit my pain increased.
I stole back my solitary and guts
As time allowed me the courage to learn,
I filled your days for you to destroy us.
You were never truly my Troy to burn.
I wrote this while driving.
A little more bearable,
You set my nerves at ease.
My running mind–
Your eyes it sees.
Your lips on my cheek,
Your hand on my thigh,
Firm and protective.
I ask myself why
You choose to love me,
Treat me like a queen.
How did I get so lucky
To be the woman you see?
Your sweet smile,
Your smirk,
Your sigh,
That excited look in your eye
When you speak with passion.
I see it all and
I breathe it in.
Every second with you
My love only deepens.
Every tear rolling down my face—
Young, old, tomorrow, yesterday.
They each have their own special place.
The hands of my mother; they’ll lay.
My strength, it always comes from you,
By reminding me the right way.
My whole life I dedicate to
Your love that never goes away.
Every day shining with pure love,
Through your illuminating light
Of God almighty up above,
Showing how to walk by faith, not sight.
No bouquet of pretty flowers
Or dark chocolates filled with cream
Will ever be enough to show
How you are the mother of my dreams.
Many others say that they have
The greatest mother of them all.
But there is no one who compares,
Who always picks me up when I fall.
One thing that I know for certain
On earth there is no woman
Who spreads and carries within
A love so strong and pure—
The love of My Mother.
I am an
Ignorant
Stupid fool
My green eyes
These tears roll
My pale face
I gaze
Far into my soul
And I see
A fragile
Foolish me
To think
I could
Be
Happy
All I needed
Was
a simple
Look into me
Broken,
not whole
You know it’s not
Real
What he says
What you feel
Your broken heart
Your streaming
tears
Look at yourself
These
broken mirrors
Let go of him
False happiness
it will never be
Worth
the risk
What controls you, your life, your mind?
Consumption of your human flesh.
Steals from you your precious time.
Through this, your life morals they thresh.
Your lover, do they drain from you
Lively feelings you should obtain?
That bottle of whisky a day
Does it taunt you each hour in vain?
That stick molded into your fingers:
Conquering your mind, taking your time
From dwelling in happiness with
Someone that cig doesn’t allow you to miss.
An obsession with anything
That once taken from you has a sting
Pronouncing control over your life
Feeding you comforting, ugly lies.
“I can help you overcome this.”
“Come to me for a sweet feeling.”
“If I leave it is me you’ll miss.”
“I provide proper healing.”
Is it not quite cowardly?
To turn to a simple escape.
To mask that pain you feel.
You allow it your mind to shape.
Why not gain control of what is yours?
Take back the life you had once before.
Seek out the strength you have deep within;
Break through the sinking soil of your sin.
You are so beautiful and happy.
Please don’t abandon me; please keep me.
Don’t let the world steal me away,
For if you let it, you’ll mold like clay.
I am your cherished humanity–
Your compassion, your humility,
Loving and giving ability,
Your innocence, your purity.
I am everything you yearn to be.
Hold onto me tight, you sweet child.
Some will beg to steal me from your soul.
Show them your cherished qualities.
It is not you, but them that is a fool.
Because the real winner is the one
Who lives their life by giving love,
Renewing their mind from thoughts above,
Straying from conforming to this earth.
Hold onto me and feel your worth.
Songs of Existence 