Gain Control.

What controls you, your life, your mind?

Consumption of your human flesh.

Steals from you your precious time.

Through this, your life morals they thresh.

 

Your lover, do they drain from you

Lively feelings you should obtain?

That bottle of whisky a day

Does it taunt you each hour in vain?

 

That stick molded into your fingers:

Conquering your mind, taking your time

From dwelling in happiness with

Someone that cig doesn’t allow you to miss.

 

An obsession with anything

That once taken from you has a sting

Pronouncing control over your life

Feeding you comforting, ugly lies.

 

“I can help you overcome this.”

“Come to me for a sweet feeling.”

“If I leave it is me you’ll miss.”

“I provide proper healing.”

 

Is it not quite cowardly?

To turn to a simple escape.

To mask that pain you feel.

You allow it your mind to shape.

 

Why not gain control of what is yours?

Take back the life you had once before.

Seek out the strength you have deep within;

Break through the sinking soil of your sin.

A Mask.

These thoughts are lost in the maze of my mind, shoved all the way down

Making it simple to smile– easier to hide that frown

My heads up and I’m pushing through,

even if it seems like the hardest thing to do

Because the rain feels harsh on my cheeks,

but it can’t rain for days,

not even for weeks

To stand out in the pouring streams from the sky

will only last so long—eventually I’ll need to get dry

A time will come when the rain, it stops

and all of my heavy clothing, it drops

Here I’ll stand, naked and exposed

right in front of you,

no longer disclosed

I pray you take me for me

and in my eyes,

there’s no longer a wall blocking what you see

Uncovered, unsealed, ready for you

if only you’ll still be waiting,

waiting to see that view

Because the calm of the storm will turn to a soft hum,

sort of like the strings on a guitar that strum

Though the song now, it’s loud

It hurts my ears

This song now, it brings alive all of my fears

But the music continues to play,

even as I desperately pray this song away,

But I know soon, a new song will come on,

and that song, it will be forever gone

Just a distant memory,

of the person I was once expected to be

And your song, it’ll play louder

it’ll overpower my distant thought

and make me forget about the demons I once fought

But it won’t hurt my ears, no,

it won’t make me feel the need to lie low,

I’ll be screaming the lyrics of our love,

which I won’t feel I’m undeserving of

Although I may need a while,

to not have to hide from you

when I don’t have that real smile

But as for now,

negativity, it has no place,

there will always be a

smile on my face

Escape.

These thoughts, they cage me in my mind

An escape seems nearly impossible to find

When my brain is a wild animal

And my heart is way too full

When can everyone understand

That I just need someone to hold my hand

And not make matters worse

By giving my mind something new to converse

But I know the truth

I know these thoughts are just temporary

Because what’s in store is far more legendary

Than the wild animal that I call my mind

Whose escape, only nearly impossible to find

What I Can Get.

His taste was addictive in its own way…

Sort of like mint and cigarettes and man—hard to say

The way he grabbed the back of my neck, claiming me,

Suddenly gave me a new place that I always want to be

But once we pulled away and I gazed into those deep, hypnotizing eyes,

I came across something that I think I just realized

I could spend so many days,

Running through your mind of a maze

And never be able to obtain

Satisfaction

To a place I’ve never been

Because although I’m there,

It’s impossible to believe,

When there is no air

You’ve cut it off,

You’re constricting the air

Afraid to be bare…

Holding something back

But it’s not substance you lack

Whatever it is,

Is lost on me

It’s something I just cannot see

But if there’s one thing I know,

It’s that good things take time

And if I must just sit here and rhyme,

Until I’m able to catch a glimpse into that mind

Then here I’ll sit,

Taking whatever I can get